This week I've been praying hard for a sweet family that lost their baby girl. Katiehas shown such amazing strength and I admire her so much for being this way during her darkest hours. I can't even begin to imagine the loss of a child nor do I ever want to. Reading other peoples blogs has gotten me through some of my darkest hours and I am in admiration for their strength through such difficult situations. Nightly as we pray for StellanI think about how I have never known God as well as so many of these people. Reading their blogs about their children, strength, courage, and motivation to keep going through some of the hardest times has really brought me closer in my faith for sure. I have begun reading "A Woman's Secret to a Balanced Life". It is written by Proverbs 31 ministries women...Lysa Terkeurst and Sharon Jaynes. I am learning so much about myself and my faith.
I was not brought up in the church. I was baptized into the Methodist Church as a baby, but did not attend regularly as a child. Christmas Eve and sometimes Easter and to Sunday School occasionally with friends was my only experience in getting to know God. We said bedtime prayers but never took it beyond that. As I got older and had my first child I wanted to get to know more about religion and who this God was that was guiding me through this world. I took my daughter for a few years when I was a single mother. But when I remarried, my husband is not a religious person so it was hard to motivate myself to go when he was sleeping in. After each one of the children was born I would begin to go back to church and saw amazing things happening in our lives. But as they get older and schedules get more hectic we always find a reason to not attend regulary. After all of this praying I've done lately for other peoples children my own have begun asking me "when are we going back to church?" I always wanted my children to know God and I have always yearned to know him more myself. So, through reading this book and so many others I have lined up I am feeling more "in tune" and feeling so fulfilled with knowing Him. I have a lot of reading to do to "catch up" so if you have any other book recommendations I would welcome them. I am so happy with the way my life is going and so happy I am getting to know God and His Son.