Thursday, December 10, 2009

"Life...It's all about only live once and you're not coming express yourself"

Such good words to live by...I just wish I could stay on track and believe that everyday. Sometimes life gets the best of me and I forget it's not the end of the world when things aren't going my way. I need to get better about picking myself up and dusting myself off and get going again. One of my favorite shows is The Biggest Loser. I just love Jillian...I think she'd kick my butt in real life...but I love her. One of my favorite things she always says is "Life isn't going to happen unless you make it happen." How true it that?

So this week I've been in deep thought with myself. I don't know if any of you other moms out there have a life inside your head that doesn't exactly match your real life...but somedays I like the one that goes on in my head more than my real one.

In my head I see myself waking up a little early to do some yoga and then a run in a super cute outfit, dressing super chic' and heading off to work in heals and cup of coffee in hand, a nice afternoon run, and a hot cup of tea and good book and snuggled up in bed before falling into a full nights sleep of 8 hours. Ahahahaha...where in the world could I get an idea like that?

But real life is hitting the snooze button a few too many times, thinking of the millions of things that have to get done in the first hour of waking, throwing on sweats b/c the baby spit up is easier to clean off of, and heels? ha that would be a sight while chasing kids all day, cleaning poop, spilled messes, scrubbing toilets, and cooking dinner...
Don't get me wrong...I love my life. My husband has a great job and loves being a dad, my kids are healthy and smart and well behaved, and things are good most of the time. Although it is probably good that I have another life in my head or I might actually go crazy! But it doesn't mean that I don't always want more mommy time...well I guess I have a lot of mommy's Danielle time I'm looking for. A spa day, coffee shop w/ a friend, shopping alone...but at least I do get my time at the gym and I'm so glad I'm making that a priority and learning to go even when the family is not happy about it. I do deserve at least an hour to my self everyday.

So what other goals am I setting to "express" myself...

Well I'd like to go back to school, find another career path, and find something that I enjoy getting up for each day and can make mroe money at. That path is yet to be determined, but I know it's out there.

1 comment:

  1. I said that I needed more "me" time for a few years and then I realized that I never asked for it. So, I started asking for it, scheduling it, etc and now I wonder why I didn't do it sooner!